And Now

the distraction

of vacation

begins to fade and

I am

once again wrapped

in the trappings

of my sorrow.

What

to look forward to?

What

to live for?

Husband , sons,

people who care for me-

yet

it is so hard to grasp,

this motivation

to go on.

I don’t want to but I must

I must.

The feeling that

I no longer

belong

that I don’t

fit

permeates me.

I am forever

changed.

I am as different

from my former self as

day is

from night.

I am a balloon with

no air

no way

to stay aloft.

So empty.

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