I forgot to tell you that
the words matter:
Bereft
Excrutiating
Sorrow
Empty…Empty…Empty
Yearning
Hollowed
Despair
Raw
Exhausted
This. Here. Now.
by 
by by This
It wasn’t supposed to be
like this.
I wanted the other ending,
the one where she stayed.
But
here I am
watching
as this life plays out.
And,
there’s this:
I cannot turn away.
I am spellbound,
riveted-
my mind following the script
like an obedient dog.
I look at the ticket stub
in my hand,
it tells me this:
this place-
this life
is where I’m meant to be.
by I’ve learned
that
sometimes
some things
break
and can never
be fixed.
some times-
now,
some things-
her life,
mine,
shattered-
pieces scattered
never again
to be whole.
by Leaves
I see you
ablaze,
fired with sun,
with dying.
I hear you
wind blown,
the sound like
tide
pulling at pebbles on the shore.
I smell you
crisp yet damp,
returning, once again
to the earth
by After the Smoke, part 2
After the Smoke
I dream drowning and
wake
telling myself it’s over,
think of
something else-
light, laughter
but
closing my eyes
the darkness floods in
by where there’s smoke
Orange glow of sun
the birds still singing-
singing still-
take on a muted tone.
Yet I hear them
I hear them still
by